As I am getting older (I'm not really that old but, technically speaking, I do get older every day) I find that I'm less and less willing to "pull the trigger" on things. I just get more anxious about things and I have become more cautious. In my impetuous youth I had no problem just jumping right into stuff without a lot of thinking. Now I can barely tie my shoes without worrying about the consequences (ok, that's an exaggeration).

So what is it? What has led me to this more conservative approach and what will lead me out of it? Maybe it's the fact that I now know how many things there are that can go wrong. When I was a kid everything seemed "sure to work". After dozens and dozens of failures maybe now I'm not so optomistic. The school of hard knocks has taught me to think twice before doing something.

That's good in that it saves me from making costly mistakes. But it's bad in that I become too hesitant when swift action is required and lack confidence when boldness is needed. Maybe the key to getting over this is the same thing that brought it on. More experience. Maybe I need more experience seeing how well things do work.

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